"Uh, sure, I always like non-bad talks." Blaine smiled as he leaned back against his headboard, undoing his bowtie and getting comfortable. Today had been a long day and he was ready to be lazy, lie in bed, maybe watch a movie with his beautiful lover and hide away in his manly arms. And then maybe sex, if he was lucky.
"If the talk is about the kitchen, that's all Dave's thing. I didn't organise it and I know it's confusing but he likes keeping the knives near the fridge cause of the meat." Blaine clarified helpfully.
"Yeah, I'm not messing with Dave's kitchen. He's weirdly sensitive about that for a man who has only made four different dishes in his life and who thinks that 'salt' and 'tabasco' is all there is to seasoning." So, clearly, Kurt had a lot to say on that subject in theory, it was simply not what needed to be discussed right now.
He put a hand on Blaine's knee to ensure he had his focus, looking at him as he started. "I told you about the cast recording. I've officially run out of time putting that off now, I'm about to risk breach of contract. So I need to go back and get that done next week."
"Ah. Well, yeah, of course. Work is work." Kurt was going back to New York. Fuck. He hated that already but he knew they were two adults and they could handle it. Kurt wanted to keep doing Broadway and Blaine knew it meant living in two places. It had some advantages, he would have more time to hang out with Sam again.
"I'll miss you but I'll eagerly await you." Blaine teased with a small smile. "Just try not to miss me too much. I know your heart will ache with longing."
"Oh, it will. I've no doubt about it. My heart forever longs for you." Kurt tried to think of the right way to do this because he could sense the underlying tension here, even with how good an actor Blaine was. He knew him too well. "I was hoping that you could come with me. Please, hear me out. This isn't me wanting to get you to live in New York again. I just want you to visit for a few days. Only the best of New York. The best of us."
He smiled and moved closer, getting on his knees and taking Blaine's hands into his as he looked at him. "We can eat all the best foods that you probably miss, we can catch a show, we can do some shopping... No fighting. No stress. Just you and me. Happy in New York for a few days. A holiday."
He wanted him to go to New York? Blaine was a bit stunned at first and he had no idea why, he just never thought he'd have to do that. Now he was genuinely wondering why he ever thought that. New York was a big part of Kurt and there was no avoiding it, sooner or later he had to go. And as much as he was afraid of losing Kurt, he knew he had to face New York. It was a good way to see how stable they were now.
"I do have some holiday days. I'd have to see if I could get the time off, it can be a bit tricky. Some of these kids don't cope super well with change but I can talk to my boss." Blaine smiled, unsure but really trying not to be. Why should he be? They were older and better at this by now. Hopefully. "Would we stay in a hotel or do you still have a place?"
"I don't have a place right now, so either we get a hotel or I might get a place for a bit. I could maybe get something through my agent or producer, I'd have to ask." Kurt hadn't really thought that through, he had been stuck on the hurdle of how to talk to Blaine about this. "I mean, at this point they are probably ready to do whatever to make sure I actually come back."
There was that benefit of playing hard to get. Kurt ran a finger over the ring Blaine wore, smiling at him. "I understand that this is difficult for you. So I want to make it as easy as possible. You can just come for a few days if that's better."
"It's not hard, I honestly don't mind." It was hard but he wasn't about to admit that to Kurt of all people. He felt almost challenged, very maturely, so he refused to drop the positivity and yeah, he was a good actor, he managed to hide it all well. "I'll take the week off. Monday to Sunday. Then we can just have a fun holiday before I have to go back to work. You know, I haven't had a holiday since Sam's honeymoon."
True story. Unfortunately. "I know that New York is part of you so I have to get used to it again and I will but it's not like I'm scared of it." Oh but he was. He was terrified. Already he had thought of about 1000 terrible reasons why Kurt would ditch him in New York.
"I'm glad you're not scared." Although he still had his doubts but, hey. Maybe Blaine had worked through his issues. He had been trying to reassure him nonstop, so it was certainly a possibility. Kurt lifted his lover's hand to his lips so he could kiss the ring, his eyes staying on him. "I'd love for you to see me on stage one day. If you wanted to."
It hurt sometimes, knowing that Blaine hadn't seen him yet. "So much of this play feels like it came from you. You've made me strong enough to do any of this."
"I would like to see it. I heard one song from it, the 'not alone' one. Then I couldn't watch any more at the time." Once was enough. It had been the push he needed to go back to therapy though, so there was that. Until Star Wars came to Disney plus, then he abandoned therapy to watch the new releases of The Mandalorian. Worth it.
"I'm really glad you did it. Lived the dream, you know? I wanted you too." No matter what he felt or how much it hurt, he did want Kurt to be successful. Even if sometimes he hated how successful and amazing and perfect he was. "My brother saw you perform live. He sent pictures. He's so mean sometimes." In a cute, sweet way.
"Your brother is so attractive and talented... I can't believe he came to see me and I didn't know!" Well, Kurt got why, but it really did not feel fair. "I have met so many people that have had sex with your brother... I mean, sorry, TMI, just, man."
It was a bit of a minefield to avoid at times, he didn't want to have sex with anyone who had had sex with Blaine's brother. It felt incestuous.
Kurt shifted so he could lean back against Blaine, head on his chest and he made Blaine wrap his arms around him. It was nice to be this close, it felt safe in a way he hadn't in a long time. Blaine always made him feel that way. "I've been working on a new script. It's titled 'Courage'. It's... I don't know. I think it's about how you make me feel, more than anything."
"Yeah, that sounds like Eddie. He seriously gets around. I don't know if he'll ever settle." Ed didn't seem the type, though he wished he would for these reasons alone. God, he was just relieved Kurt had never had sex with Edward or he would never be able to see either of them again. Stupid, handsome idiot.
Blaine smiled as he wrapped his arms around Kurt and held him close, enjoying how Kurt felt against him. He missed having a boyfriend, he loved cuddles and more so with a boyfriend than his best friend. "So you work on scripts too? Man, is there anything you can't do. You're like a -- quadruple threat."
"I mean, you've said it before. There is no space for me there. I used to think there's no space for me anywhere. Nowhere they wouldn't want me to be more-- More like Finn, or Sam, or you." He was used to feeling like he had to stay in the shadows because they didn't want him near the light. But Blaine had always believed in him. "I have to make space for myself. And if that helps some other gay kids that grow up seeing themselves on stage in the main role instead of getting sidelined, all the better."
He shrugged, turning his head to kiss Blaine's shoulder. "I admire what you do. How you help those kids. I hope I can help a little too, in an admittedly much more selfish way."
"Do you know how great it is to have a popular Broadway show be that out and gay? That there's a cast recording with multiple queer songs that I can sing and people would know? God, teenage me would have thirst after you so hard. Sexy, progressive and sings like a dream? Woah. I'm glad we can be who we needed as kids, now we're adults." Or, at least, Kurt was that. Kurt was making serious strides and Blaine wasn't really jealous, he was just straight up impressed.
"You needed to be heard and you made yourself heard. I could not be prouder." He knew Kurt admired his job but sometimes, he did feel like a bit of a quitter and loser around Kurt. He was cut from NYADA, he never performed any more and he didn't matter outside of Lima Ohio. "I think you're incredible."
"I think you're incredible. Blaine, I mean it. I've never stopped looking up to you, not since that day you first completely threw me by telling me what rock stars the Warbler were before I knew you were their leader." What a thing to do. How had he had any chance other than to fall heads over heels? A teenage dream indeed.
Kurt took Blaine's hand, making sure their fingers were interlacing as he held on to it. "I think the work you're doing is really important. A friend of mine, Hartley Rathaway. He did a lot for the play, most of the final arrangements and a lot of the composing, he's some kind of musical genius, it's annoying. He was born deaf and he keeps doing productions with sign language. I think you should meet him. Maybe you could widen your programme. You'd stay in Lima, but the programme could be state-wide. Nation-wide."
"I don't know if I could do that. That's a lot of organising and fundraising. I'm more of a 'local streets with a bucket' sort of activist. But I could meet him, if you want. It would be fun to have friendly competitions with other states..." Blaine wasn't sure he was enough of a go-getter to make these things work but he did think sign language productions of musicals could be super handy for his non-verbal kids to learn. "Maybe he can adapt me some scenes to practise with my kids."
All of which could be super handy. "It's all cool but just, you know, keep expectations low for what I can do. I'm not being super down on myself, I know I can be, but God. I can barely get my actual paperwork done. I'm so bad with this stuff." So the idea of creating a program seemed daunting. "My only truly finished project in my whole life was scrapbooking your senior year."
"You don't have to meet him. Although if it is because you're wary of organising and fundraising, you shouldn't, because that's what he does. I mean, he's intense about it. It's hard to describe." Kurt frowned, trying to think of the right words to explain Hartley to someone who hadn't met him. He was hard enough to explain to most that had met him, very easily misunderstood. "Remember all the times in your life when you've felt things are unfair? The way you felt then, that kind of anger and drive to just do something. Scream or, I don't know, revolt. Yell at Karofsky in the locker room or stare down your brother in that sexy way you did."
Kurt did remember that in all the right ways. He cleared his throat and shrugged. "Anyway, Hartley is kind of permanently on that edge, I think. And he gets things done. He'd get the project off the ground. He'd just need someone who's charming like you to make people like the project."
"Well, I can definitely hit him up. If I can get the time off." Blaine leaned over and took his phone, opening up his chat with his boss to ask her if he could have time off. He asked Kurt the dates and then added them in, sending them off into the hands of fate. New York again. Jesus, his heart was racing.
"Well, I'm excited for the food. Most take out here has under 3 stars in hygiene so it's always a bit of a gamble." He did miss New York in some ways. Some small, less scary ways.
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"If the talk is about the kitchen, that's all Dave's thing. I didn't organise it and I know it's confusing but he likes keeping the knives near the fridge cause of the meat." Blaine clarified helpfully.
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He put a hand on Blaine's knee to ensure he had his focus, looking at him as he started. "I told you about the cast recording. I've officially run out of time putting that off now, I'm about to risk breach of contract. So I need to go back and get that done next week."
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"I'll miss you but I'll eagerly await you." Blaine teased with a small smile. "Just try not to miss me too much. I know your heart will ache with longing."
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He smiled and moved closer, getting on his knees and taking Blaine's hands into his as he looked at him. "We can eat all the best foods that you probably miss, we can catch a show, we can do some shopping... No fighting. No stress. Just you and me. Happy in New York for a few days. A holiday."
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"I do have some holiday days. I'd have to see if I could get the time off, it can be a bit tricky. Some of these kids don't cope super well with change but I can talk to my boss." Blaine smiled, unsure but really trying not to be. Why should he be? They were older and better at this by now. Hopefully. "Would we stay in a hotel or do you still have a place?"
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There was that benefit of playing hard to get. Kurt ran a finger over the ring Blaine wore, smiling at him. "I understand that this is difficult for you. So I want to make it as easy as possible. You can just come for a few days if that's better."
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True story. Unfortunately. "I know that New York is part of you so I have to get used to it again and I will but it's not like I'm scared of it." Oh but he was. He was terrified. Already he had thought of about 1000 terrible reasons why Kurt would ditch him in New York.
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It hurt sometimes, knowing that Blaine hadn't seen him yet. "So much of this play feels like it came from you. You've made me strong enough to do any of this."
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"I'm really glad you did it. Lived the dream, you know? I wanted you too." No matter what he felt or how much it hurt, he did want Kurt to be successful. Even if sometimes he hated how successful and amazing and perfect he was. "My brother saw you perform live. He sent pictures. He's so mean sometimes." In a cute, sweet way.
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It was a bit of a minefield to avoid at times, he didn't want to have sex with anyone who had had sex with Blaine's brother. It felt incestuous.
Kurt shifted so he could lean back against Blaine, head on his chest and he made Blaine wrap his arms around him. It was nice to be this close, it felt safe in a way he hadn't in a long time. Blaine always made him feel that way. "I've been working on a new script. It's titled 'Courage'. It's... I don't know. I think it's about how you make me feel, more than anything."
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Blaine smiled as he wrapped his arms around Kurt and held him close, enjoying how Kurt felt against him. He missed having a boyfriend, he loved cuddles and more so with a boyfriend than his best friend. "So you work on scripts too? Man, is there anything you can't do. You're like a -- quadruple threat."
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He shrugged, turning his head to kiss Blaine's shoulder. "I admire what you do. How you help those kids. I hope I can help a little too, in an admittedly much more selfish way."
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"You needed to be heard and you made yourself heard. I could not be prouder." He knew Kurt admired his job but sometimes, he did feel like a bit of a quitter and loser around Kurt. He was cut from NYADA, he never performed any more and he didn't matter outside of Lima Ohio. "I think you're incredible."
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Kurt took Blaine's hand, making sure their fingers were interlacing as he held on to it. "I think the work you're doing is really important. A friend of mine, Hartley Rathaway. He did a lot for the play, most of the final arrangements and a lot of the composing, he's some kind of musical genius, it's annoying. He was born deaf and he keeps doing productions with sign language. I think you should meet him. Maybe you could widen your programme. You'd stay in Lima, but the programme could be state-wide. Nation-wide."
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All of which could be super handy. "It's all cool but just, you know, keep expectations low for what I can do. I'm not being super down on myself, I know I can be, but God. I can barely get my actual paperwork done. I'm so bad with this stuff." So the idea of creating a program seemed daunting. "My only truly finished project in my whole life was scrapbooking your senior year."
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Kurt did remember that in all the right ways. He cleared his throat and shrugged. "Anyway, Hartley is kind of permanently on that edge, I think. And he gets things done. He'd get the project off the ground. He'd just need someone who's charming like you to make people like the project."
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"Well, I'm excited for the food. Most take out here has under 3 stars in hygiene so it's always a bit of a gamble." He did miss New York in some ways. Some small, less scary ways.